Jordan didn't write a group letter last week. I think he wanted to spend more individual time writing personal letters and also talking to us. So, I'm not going to complain. I am going to share some excerpts from the letters he wrote Brad and me and some excerpts from his conversation with Brad and I last Sunday that he couldn't speak, but that he could only type.
Let me preface this a little bit so you don't just think Jordan is mean. Going to a foreign country is hard. There is a lot of culture shock. The poorer the country the more difficult it is for someone to go there. Jordan is going through this culture shock now. It is helpful when you have a companion from the United States to help you make this transition. However, I recognize that this is not always possible in missions. Many times it is helpful to have a native companion that can speak the language, knows the customs and cultures and knows the mission. Anyway, many times new missionaries are so miserable as they try to accustom themselves to the reality they now live in, they dislike their first companions and more so if that companion cannot even begin to relate to what you are experiencing. I had 7 companions, 3 americans and 4 natives. Of the 7, the only one I hated was my first companion. I hated her. I don't hate her now. I don't think I would have hated her had I not been going through such a difficult time. While Jordan does not hate his companion as of right now (at least, not that he admits), he is certainly trying to understand him.
Other quick note, I know Jordan is doing better because instead of being on the verge of tears as he asked us questions, he would ask us a question and then say, wait I want to tell you something. Then he would type something and laugh as he typed it finding humor in the things that were driving him crazy.
Anyway, here is his last letter to me:
Mom that sounds crazy! I can't
believe you almost got burnt by bacon oil. I am glad you still looked pretty as
ever when I talked you today. I love and miss you all so much. As I already
told you lots of small drama with my philipino companion this week but I am
over it. I really don't hate him just sometimes when he tries to be my mother
or tell me what to do, or tell me I am to loud it really bugs me.
Let me stop here and share a conversation with Jordan that he typed to us over email:
Jordan: He (referring to his companion) says I am too loud and it drives away the spirit. Also he always tells me to be quiet like less loud when talking in warray warray. Everybody mumbles their prayers here, missionaries included.
I told him that he will probably come back mumbling. Anyway, back to Jordan's letter.
Like I said I
told a member I knew exactly how many months away from going home I would be
during both of my birthdays and she called me trunkee. I am not trunkee. To
make matters worse I asked my companion if he thinks I am trunkee (trunkee is a missionary term which means longing for home) and he said I
don't know which means yes.
Let me stop here. One of the issues of humans I think is judging others. Of course, in our church this happens too and especially on the mission. Here is some of the things he typed to me about how he feels the pressure to fit in.
Jordan: My district leader says he hates P days and doesn't look forward to them. He talked about how you are a bad missionary as well if you have an MP3 player, a speaker and if you don't wear your garments all the friggin time in 100 degree weather while jumproping.
Back to the letter.
He is 21 but we are not super good friends just
friendly enough, half of me wants to start problems and fight him when he says
annoying little things but I know it is not worth it. I don't think he likes me a whole lot but that is ok.
Back to Jordan's conversation with me that shows how hard this is:
Jordan: I don't think he likes me. He doesn't sit by me on the bus. I have been getting up at 6 instead of 6:30. He says this is bad adn to stick to the schedule. Is it bad to get up early?
To be fair, it's probably not just his companion, I'm sure Jordan frustrates his companion too:
Jordan: My companion is so Slooowwww at biking. I hate it. He is slower than Jake up the hills. I leave him sometimes cause he is annoying.
Jordan: My companion is so slow when daily planning. I tried to go faster and he said we can't receive revelation if we are rushing.
Back to Jordan's letter:
My area is hard. We had one sister who was supposed
to be baptized this week but didn't show up to her pre-baptismal interview. Not sure if she wants to be baptized still or her parents said
she couldn't she is 15. It is tough work, especially where I am but I know
I can do all things through the lord. My biking is fast but guaranteed if I came home I would get wrecked by the elevation change. I really hope I don't get sick
here. I seriously cant wait to see your beautiful faces again. I love the
bread here. They dont have a lot of meat that is cheap but the bread and
rolls here are always so goooooddddd.
PROMISE ME YOU AND DAD WILL MAKE PAN
DE COCO ON CHRISTMAS
IT IS SO GOOD
Love
you guys so much talk to you next week!
Some things Jordan asked me about last week that shows just what he is dealing with. These are things I don't have the answers to.
How do you keep rats off of your kitchen counter?
Where do I put my garbage? We just throw it in a room here.
He did say he is learning to communicate with the people there and coming to really love them. He said they are humble and kind.